nil desperandum

I went to www.learndirect-advice.co.uk and did their questionnaire. It's designed to give you some clues along the way to choosing your ideal career.

It is not a good sign. Last time I did this kind of distractive exploration was just before I chucked in a safe and lucrative career in international marketing for a pharmaceutical company. Activity preceding action. Discontent fomenting activity.

Anyway, the test says my top interest group jobs are:
Publishing and Journalism, Performing Arts, Broadcast and Media, Arts Crafts and Design.
so excuse me, I'm just off to get a job in broadcasting. I don't suppose nil experience and incipient middle age will deter the potential employees from seeing the potential. And I doubt I will have to 'sell' myself in any way. It will surely be as obvious as the pot on my belly?

Actually, I think journalism could be an option. Freelance features contributor. Only you need to be a really disciplined self-starter for that. Two words that are anathema to me. Disciplined. And, indeed, Self-Starter. So this points to low confidence: unwilling to get out among people and find, seek, hunt, harry, question etc. Certainly I feel happier considering people-free activity, but get depressed if I have to spend too long alone. I'm still trying to figure this one out.

So I went here: www.stevepavlina.com to see if some kind of motivational stuff could ignite some kind of spark within me (can you tell yet that I was reading the Sunday Times last weekend?). It did ignite a spark. A spark of detestation for the kind of life-coaching Americanisation of life: I first saw it a thousand years ago working for my American pharmaceutical company and have watched it slowly infect British management. And yuck.

So I just end up scoffing - I know, not a very nice way to behave and yes, I also know it says more (less) about me than about the purveyors of hope and inspiration to millions. Snide is not nice.

But now what?